I used to strive to be normal. In high school I was the “plain Jane,” horse freak who was a bit too skinny to be considered beautiful. I wore the cloths that weren’t popular but weren’t weird enough to be noticed. Some people knew me, but most didn’t. I didn’t mind so much because I didn’t want to be noticed. I was more the observer anyway.
But what does it mean to be normal? Webster says it is “conforming to the standard or the common type; usual; not abnormal; regular; natural.” So if something isn’t normal it’s unnatural? Our society seems to think abnormal and unnatural is something that should be feared. We have created a normal behavior that we expect people to follow. A normal way to dress and talk. Anything that does not conform to societies “normal” is considered weird.
There are certain people who embrace this “weird.” People who express themselves louder than some think they should. People who live, act, and talk the way they want. This feels normal to them.
I have been through far too many abnormal events to consider myself normal. And yet I catch myself saying “I just want to be normal.” But I have realized this isn’t really the case. I like who I am. I express myself louder than some by being quiet. If you don’t know what I mean by this, ask people who know me. I am told the room changes when I walk in. In striving to be normal I have created my own personality, my own way of existing. This is my normal and it may be abnormal to some, but I accept their normal.
Embrace your normal, even if it is abnormal, because it is yours. We don’t have to follow the rules that social society has placed on us. We don’t have to be normal. I have always known I would not fit into a mold someone else created and called “normal.” My mold is always changing, and I am the one who created it.


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